What a whirlwind. Is it a dream? After playing in bars for 30 years, and waiting, and waiting to get my break…has it just arrived at age 51?
I recently (2 weeks before the announcement of my nomination), had a meeting with some big wigs in N.Y. in the music biz.
The reason for the meeting was because I performed at a party, and one of the folks there was an entertainment lawyer. He said, “Wow, you really are great. Maybe our firm can help.”
When I met with his partner, I told him my life story, he was very nice…and then another guy showed up. Big suit.
So he starts drilling me. And asks stuff like, “Well, ya know you aren’t young. What do you think you are going to do with this? (Talking about my album)… (And I wouldn’t have known I wasn’t young if he hadn’t told me. So informative!)
I said, “It’s a pretty good album”.
He says, “That doesn’t matter. You won’t be able to get anywhere. It doesn’t matter how good it is.” He kind of snickered at me.
I said, “You haven’t even listened to it yet”.
He repeats, “It could be the best album in the world, and it doesn’t matter”.
Apparently, my age trumped any consideration of talent.
I was so over talking to this guy. And they said they have business to talk about, so….like scram. (not in so many words.) But I was dismissed.
I had brought an album with me, thinking it would come in handy for this meeting.
And I don’t know why I even gave it to him. But I did. I said, why don’t you listen to it…
He gave me his card, and I threw it away after I left.
Driving back to Jersey that night, I started to cry. Maybe it’s because my hormones are loopy right now. The Emotional Jukebox was an Emotional Train Wreck!
But I was more angry with myself for giving him my CD. I worked very hard to make it. 3,000 hours at least. Not something to give away.
But guess what? I’m not angry anymore! In fact, I am ecstatic! I can’t tell you how good this nomination feels!
This picture was taken at the post office today, as I mail out EMOTIONAL JUKEBOX to folks that have been purchasing it since the news.